cursor by ofsquidgyandkellin! Shtuff

I really want to just die right now. I’m freaking out. I’m so close to just ending it I just can’t do this anymore. I don’t even know why I’m still here.

I don’t know what to do… I’ve been hospitalized multiple times for attempted suicide… I’ve tried to commit suicide more times than I can count… When I tell people that they say “well if you really wanted to die then you would be dead” or “you just did those things for attention”… I can’t take this anymore… After the last time I went to the hospital because of my depression I got taken out of normal school and put into a “youth transition program” it sucks… It’s supposed to be a day treatment/school yet I’m not getting any help… I’m falling behind in my classes because I’m never in class because my anxiety is too bad with having to deal with all these other kids with mental problems… I haven’t self harmed since January but I want to so badly… I just don’t want to deal with people telling me how stupid I am for cutting… The past many times I cut I only told one person… Actually most of the time I wouldn’t even tell them… I’m sick of people saying its for “attention”… Kids at school found out why I can’t be in the classroom when the teacher uses Clorox wipes to clean the desks… I trie to kill myself by drinking Clorox bleach and I can’t be around the smell of it because it is a huge trigger for me… A kid was making jokes about drinking bleach and I said it wasn’t funny… He kept making the jokes and I repeated that I didn’t think it was funny and that he should stop … He replied with “yes it fucking is” I said “I’m sorry but I don’t want to her you making it into a joke when I actually tried to kill myself that way” he freaked out and the staff told him to leave and he said “I DIDN’T KNOW SHE WAS THAT FUCKED UP AND THAT SHE LIKED TO DO THAT SHIT”… I’ve been telling the therapists at my school about my depression getting worse since I got there in November… They don’t seem to care… There was a girl that would laugh about wanting to kill herself and the staff were always like “oh do we need to make you a safety plan” but then when I end up checking in inside my group therapy and I end up bursting in tears about being suicidal they just don’t really say anything… I really can’t take this shit anymore… I feel so alone right now… I’ve tried talking to my boyfriend about how I’ve been feeling and I know he cares a lot about what’s going on with me but I still feel alone… I just… I don’t know what to do…


imagine how radical being a pet fish is like youre just swimming around and suddenly it starts rain

unless you’re my brother Austin’s pet fish in that case you get fed fish sticks and get kool-aid dumped into your tank and you die in like a week


1. There are plenty of ways to enter a pool. The stairs is not one of them.

2. Never cancel dinner plans by text message.

3. Don’t knock it ‘til you try it.

4. If a street performer makes you stop walking, you owe him a buck.

5. Always use ‘we’ when referring to your home team or your government.

6. When entrusted with a secret, keep it.

7. Don’t underestimate free throws in a game of ‘horse’.

8. Just because you can doesn’t mean you should.

9. Don’t dumb it down.

10. You only get one chance to notice a new haircut.

11. If you’re staying more than one night, unpack.

12. Never park in front of a bar.

13. Expect the seat in front of you to recline. Prepare accordingly.

14. Keep a picture of your first fish, first car, and first boy/girlfriend.

15. Hold your heroes to a high standard.

16. A suntan is earned, not bought.

17. Never lie to your doctor.

18. All guns are loaded.

19. Don’t mention sunburns. Believe me, they know.

20. The best way to show thanks is to wear it. Even if it’s only once.

21. Take a vacation of your cell phone, internet, and TV once a year.

22. Don’t fill up on bread, no matter how good.

23. A handshake beats an autograph.

24. Don’t linger in the doorway. In or out.

25. If you choose to go in drag, don’t sell yourself short.

26. If you want to know what makes you unique, sit for a caricature.

27. Never get your hair cut the day of a special event.

28. Be mindful of what comes between you and the Earth. Always buy good shoes, tires, and sheets.

29. Never eat lunch at your desk if you can avoid it.

30. When you’re with new friends, don’t just talk about old friends.

31. Eat lunch with the new kids.

32. When traveling, keep your wits about you.

33. It’s never too late for an apology.

34. Don’t pose with booze.

35. If you have the right of way, take it.

36. You don’t get to choose your own nickname.

37. When you marry someone, remember you marry their entire family.

38. Never push someone off a dock.

39. Under no circumstances should you ask a woman if she’s pregnant.

40. It’s not enough to be proud of your ancestry; live up to it.

41. Don’t make a scene.

42. When giving a thank you speech, short and sweet is best.

43. Know when to ignore the camera.

44. Never gloat.

45. Invest in good luggage.

46. Make time for your mom on your birthday. It’s her special day, too.

47. When opening presents, no one likes a good guesser.

48. Sympathy is a crutch, never fake a limp.

49. Give credit. Take blame.

50. Suck it up every now and again.

51. Never be the last one in the pool.

52. Don’t stare.

53. Address everyone that carries a firearm professionally.

54. Stand up to bullies. You’ll only have to do it once.

55. If you’ve made your point, stop talking.

56. Admit it when you’re wrong.

57. If you offer to help don’t quit until the job is done.

58. Look people in the eye when you thank them.

59. Thank the bus driver.

60. Never answer the phone at the dinner table.

61. Forgive yourself for your mistakes.

62. Know at least one good joke.

63. Don’t boo. Even the ref is somebody’s son.

64. Know how to cook one good meal.

65. Learn to drive a stick shift.

66. Be cool to younger kids. Reputations are built over a lifetime.

67. It’s okay to go to the movies by yourself.

68. Dance with your mother/father.

69. Don’t lose your cool. Especially at work.

70. Always thank the host.

71. If you don’t understand, ask before it’s too late.

72. Know the size of your boy/girlfriend’s clothes.

73. There is nothing wrong with a plain t-shirt.

74. Be a good listener. Don’t just wait for your turn to talk.

75. Keep your word.

76. In college, always sit in the front. You’ll stand out immediately.

77. Carry your mother’s bags. She carried you for nine months.

78. Be patient with airport security. They’re just doing their jobs.

79. Don’t be the talker in a movie.

80. The opposite sex likes people who shower.

81. You are what you do, not what you say.

82. Learn to change a tire.

83. Be kind. Everyone has a hard fight ahead of them.

84. An hour with grandparents is time well spent. Ask for advice when you need it.

85. Don’t litter.

86. If you have a sister, get to know her boyfriend. Your opinion is important.

87. You won’t always be the strongest or the fastest. But you can be the toughest.

88. Never call someone before 9am or after 9pm.

89. Buy the orange properties in Monopoly.

90. Make the little things count.

91. Always wear a bra at work.

92. There is a fine line between looking sultry and slutty. Find it.

93. You’re never too old to need your mom.

94. Ladies, if you make the decision to wear heels on the first date, commit to keeping them on and keeping your trap shut about how much your feet kill.

95. Know the words to your national anthem.

96. Your dance moves might not be the best, but I promise making a fool of yourself is more fun then sitting on the bench alone.

97. Smile at strangers.

98. Make goals.

99. Being old is not dictated by your bedtime.

100. If you have to fight, punch first and punch hard.

a high school teacher’s list of 100 wisest words (via live-la-bella-e-vita)






how come nobody got pregnant at hogwarts? i mean come on, surely there was some unprotected hanky panky going on there.


ahh, makes sense. 

fetus deletus

#I think you’ll find it was because Harry cock blocked everyone


Glass Fracturing At 5 Million Frames Per Second

This is beautiful


Glass Fracturing At 5 Million Frames Per Second

This is beautiful


you and your fall down guys and chemical reactions


i have 3 moods:

  • skips every song on my ipod
  • lets the music play without interruption
  • plays the same song on repeat for days